D E N I A L

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,
which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night.
I miss you like hell.
(Edna St. Vincent Millay)

One of the reason why i left jakarta to another province, to a small island in the east Indonesia for more than one month is to forget him.
And now I'm already here, not feeling forgotten or left behind.. the worst case is we are closer than before. And i feel awful.

And the pathetic part is i feel somehow we made a distance when we are in the same city, here in Jakarta.
Kenapa pas jauh malah jadi deket dan pas udah di kota yang sama merasa menjauh?

Everybody keep asking me 'who is he'. But, since, we are in the same circle of friends. So i keep the distance, i keep quiet, i dont want anyone know about our (not) ordinary friendship. Especially, we have different belief. So yeah.. nothing to say actually.